Insanity Is The New Trend

We are in turmoil for getting ourselves treated, injecting a serum and breathing again by looking at the world so different. I'm suggesting the world ways they have not seen. They see me an ill patient with issues of times that are no more and I'm trying to live them. Kiss the night away, too young with an amount of morphine I'm under. This is the end I believe, where I'm happy and there is no sadness, my mind is at too many places to stand in a room, lights that blink an eye and I'm judged by brain leeches. Human heart is in pain, I need to be there, screaming at the top of my lungs as they feed on my soul. Their pills are their own flesh, telling me I'll get better. Tomorrow I'll breathe again, tomorrow is not a person, and I am still in pain. I never watched television and why are you telling me to see the world through it. I have eyes and my heart sees all that I want to. I am put inside a room where they pour cold water over me; try to electrocute those symptoms out of me. Where should I run, where am I to go, I am alone in their world. I should just sit for awhile and see their television, listen to their words, feel their emotions, I might get out of here sooner that way. I cannot be turned. I might just feel better, I will be okay.

I Am A Part Of You

We all wonder so much about a change, a change of heart, a change of mood, even change of relationships. It really makes me sad about the connections, the reasons, the moments and memories before, during and after a change in commitment, in problems, in happiness, even in sadness. But, the anger or madness in humans, we usually take things to an over extreme from which we cannot return and undo. We all are vulnerable and emotional in one or another way. Those people or bonds that build us can also tear us down; beat us in our own game because they know our weaknesses. We are all a part of society where we judge before we introduce and to us those people are stupid who do not have their defenses up, just because they are ready to give away not only their things but themselves. We as an individual change a person either better of tomorrow or the worst of eternity. Impacts in life are black and white, are an open source and full of interactions. Our lies can be truth to the other and truth can be lies, we will always be in a circle of problems but along with them will be solutions like an antidote to a poison. Delicate souls need hope, encouragement and a pull to be back on their feet. When souls are as a couple living in a world where we whole as people are a society, are bound to bring destruction to one another's lives. The person on the ground will always be stronger than the person standing because we trap ourselves to a point that we feel lonely, and no matter what we go through, loneliness will always hover and kills us. We surely are a calculation added wrong.

I Need Light!

Welcome to a place where I'm forgotten. In the darkness where I'm all alone, I see no light nor feel any warm presence. I'm an embodied witness of my own crime; I stay in my heart as I try to close my mind. Living is only a word when I'm crawling on my lies; I pick up all the broken pieces of my past. Analyze them, study them, scratch the walls for more darkness behind them, kill myself and bring myself alive again and I repeat everything all over again like a mad man. I feel like "Gotham City", city of no hope, mothers leaving their babies in garbage drums, people crying for help and no one comes, even the people who can hear the cries are deaf to tones. When I think about a fictional place, I feel I've been there. I'm there, running from something, someone, just running. When we are so alone, where do we go? What do we do? How do we find that place where everything is alright? The darkness always comes to me, talk to me when I'm all alone. Is the cemetery near me or have I been put to rest already?